Happy Weekend

I guess it's about time to post, I've been wanting to post for awhile I just didn't know what about. I didn't really want to write a sad post and well these past two weeks have been less than stellar. last week when I emailed Cara and told her about everything going on all she had to say to make me feel better was " keep your head up sweetie, The biggest trials come just before the greatest blessings".  I still haven't heard from BYU-I and I just don't understand. My Mom keeps telling me that it will be ok but every time someone asks me if I have heard back yet a rush of what ifs comes back into my head. Everyone keeps saying that the only reason I wouldn't get in is if God has some other plan for me, but I'm not sure what I will do if I don't get in. I can tell my Mom is worried about me, and what will happen to me if I don't get in. Things like this have happened to me before and being totally honest I really don't handle them well. I need to learn how to put all my faith in Gods hands. Today in Young Women's we had a lesson in praying and how sometimes we don't pray about things because we are too scared to hear the answer, but if we don't pray about it, its hard to know what to do. I just want to go to BYU-I so bad. It's also hard to think about loosing another sibling Cody is going to be a great missionary and I know it will help him grow but I'm not looking forward to the day that he leaves. I wish I could fast forward to when all my family in together again and I know we are all safe. I hate writing about sad stuff but this does help so now to more fun stuff! soccer starts THURSDAY! I can't wait to get back into playing every week and to make it better my friend Olivia is going to play with me!

I'm going to graduate in 111 days and Cara comes home in 129 days. 

I can do this!